A moment of clarity

So I was sitting here today being miserable and sick because my immune system hates me, and all of a sudden I had a moment where I realized that I want to be done being introverted and agoraphobic.  Yes, I dislike most people, yes I am scared to make friends because I have some weird type of social anxiety, but that is fixable, and I want to fix it.  I want to make friends, I want to stop hiding at home every night, or hiding at Kendall’s house.  They’re my second family and I love them, but being there is just enabling me to continue being antisocial.  So this is my goal, get at least two phone numbers of people I work with tonight and try to make plans to hang out with at least one…. make prints of pictures and make a portfolio so I can stop talking about how I want to do photography and instead actually work at accomplishing that goal.  Apply for school this coming semester and financial aid, stop being afraid to go outside and take pictures instead of doing the same portraits you’ve been doing for the past two years.  Get a passport so that when you decide to go overseas you can just do it.

Stop being afraid of life.

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